4.48 Psychosis *

- At 4.48

when sanity visits
for one hour and twelve minutes I am in my right mind.
When it has passed I shall be gone again,
a fragmented puppet, a grotesque fool.
Now I am here I can see myself
but when I am charmed by vile delusions of happiness,
the foul magic of this engine of sorcery,
I cannot touch my essential self.
Why do you believe then and not now?
Remember the light and believe the light.
Nothing matters more.
Stop judging by appearances and make a right judgment.
- It's all right. You will get better.
- Your disbelief cures nothing.
Look away from me.

Sarah Kane


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